you're the habit that I can't quit.

Today, k technically yesterday, I realized that people think I'm ugly. Both inside & out.

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A'S HAS LIKE ENDED.


why do i not feel as liberated as i thought i would?
i think its the fact that i knowwww i could've done much much better...
damn. i hope my grades never return.



time to open up a fresh box of contacts.

Done. Finished. Completed.
Hehe. Goodnight. Now I can sleep.

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love laughing so hard with you =)))
& having western food & salmon sushi & just lounging around in the living room watching weird tv shows & playing with my dog, who obviously still hates you =D



omggg. i'm at THE LAST LEVEL for spikeyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
i'm SO PROUD OF MYSELF. kk i got a lil help from him though =)
level 50. here i comeeeeeeeeeee.
gosh, the smallest things make me the happiest.


flashforward's starting to seem funny.
glee's storyline too.

my dad's singing karaoke downstairs and you just went home =(
damn.
back to studying tomorrow. yeah i will =). it's bio & chem afterall.
subjects i actually have control over.


seriously i'm thinking twice about econs in uni now.
gosh. so what if today's paper was relatively better than wed?
it wasn't that great either. plus its only 40%, not enough to save my sorry ass.
maybe, this is farewell econszxzx =D

DEF farewell math though =D!
who studies math in uni, like math math >:)

chem, bio. soon it'll be your turn =D.
my gosh i'm so awake.
but i don't wanna load glee just yet, want to save it for tomorrow evening.
ok. i shall play the ohsovery addictive spikey.


damn. all iphoners out there. you MUST go app store.
search for this game
"spikey bounce around" or just "spikey"
you MUST get addicted with me.
if not you're not a true buddy =(


i'm so bullshitting.
feel like joining my dad hehehe.
love karaoke without people fainting =).

there's a mozzie in my room, all the more reasons to join him downstairs.



kkkkk. study hard all sciencers out there.
damn the free people =(. jealous much.

I'm going to learn backflips by the end of this year. Then. I'm going to learn hiphop dancing. Then. Cows can fly.

I watched 10 straight episodes of glee plus
90210 combined since yesterday 6pm.
Head's spinning. Off to do chem mcq =).

Weather's so. Awesome.

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it was not worth it anyway

i'll be the first person in history to do relatively well my whole of hwachong life and then fuck up A's majorly and then jump down the iconic singapore flyer.

you're hereby cordially invited to my funeral.

i blame the internet.
found perfect links for glee finally.
finn's cute.
& i still don't like rachel.

man.
how did 3 days past so fast.
dang..

i realllly sorta had the intention to study econs vvvvv hard.
ohwell.

friday was spent sleeping, watching flashforward, going cathay to watch jennifer's body, eating ajisen ramen & gelare.

sat was spend at starbucks drinking hot choc and reading market effing failure & then swensens. [i intended to do the entire micro on sat]

sun was grandma's house plus squash then dilys house.
just reached home
was supposed to make sure she studies...
but i think... i'm a distraction =/ sorry friend =( i hope you're studying now... =( & we can both eff gp forever =)

we spend 2+ hours youtubing talented young kids.
my fav is still connie talbot & george sampson.
omg george is... awww.

oh & i cooked eggs for us, emptied her fridge as usual and ate her yummy reese peanut buttercups. =)))

i'm through with feeling stressed man.
=) i've given up expecting,
now i'll just accept whatever comes.

it's just A's, really.
i don't HAVE to go overseas anyway.
i'll make it, in my own little small way,
i will make it through.

ok.
so guess what?
my laptop's on again -.-

i hate hate hate afternoon papers.
what on earth am i supposed to do in the morning besides waking up late and eating breakf? i can't do math in the morning cause if i get stuck i just might cry. zzZzz. i would appreciate the afternoon to study my dying bio and gp k thanks. >:/

anyw.

just dropping by to wish anyone who reads my blog,

good luck all the best and remember your entry proof!!
we'll all own A's man. up its ass.


eat well, drink water, sleep early and may the luck be with you, you and you.

today,
i'm finally offing my laptop for the first time in months.
omg i pity the machine.

episode 7 of flashforward just just just watched.
no more after this. time to concentrate.



surreal, no?
A's.
i genuinely hope my efforts pay off.

I spend the last 4 hours finalizing everything. Submitted allllll my applications without further edits. FINALLY. I'm going to stop editing them. The rest? In God's hands, up to fate & my own luck. It's prob my best?

Anyw on a lighter note
I'm glad I took a break today.
Grocery shopped at carrefour
Donut factory plus fancy delight and starbucks. Singapore slinge!
Saw the orchard road light up with my parents. SO PREEETTTYY!
I especially loveee the led lights. Seeing the strips.. Like. Snowdrops! Omg. And colour theme is from blue to orange to red. Blue looks the best. Snowman. Snowballs. Trees.

Ah. The things Singapore do for global recognition. Think APEC.
who's complaining though. Love the festive spirit

I am very excited for Christmas.
A smile would inevitably creep up whenever I think of the prospect of it. Of utter unadulterated freedom. Of buying gifts for friends and seeing them smile.

I. Can't. Wait.

A great big burden off my chest. I hope I get into at least ONE of my choices =((((.

I'm strangely awake. Shit.
Kkkk night night.

.... christmas
<33333333333333

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biology for 2 full days.
polymerase phosphatases inositol triphosphate heterochromatin acetylcholinesterase vascular endothelial growth factors angiogenesis .......
all these fucked up words swimming in my mind, threatening to leak out any moment, through leak channels, down a concentration gradient, not a very steep one though. i hope my brain membrane is very impermeable.

i feel like,
i've completely utterly entirely wasted my time on bio.
on something that now looking back, i cant seem to remember anything.

my gp and econs are so screwed.
so screwed.

ok it's not like i'm going to give up.
but wtf. just when i thought i could finally send in my uni essays, my counsellor had to tell me that my ucas essay lacks substance. the fucked up thing which i probably spend weeks editing. i'm so tempted to just submit it.

i really wanted to eat macha icecream today.
i genuinely hate going home. unless a show i've loaded is done and waiting to be watched.

give up.

f my father.
go home to a shouting war.
yay.

NOW I KNOW WHY EPI 1 SEEMED FUNNY.
i streamed epi 2 instead-.-

I WANT A FLASH FORWARD TOO =D
but then again,
what if i don't see anything =O
got to love the korean.

someone please come to my house and drag me out to study -.-
k la. i got self-control. i think i do.

omg.
today's official 100% pure slack day.
i feel.
guilty.


10 course meal lunch.
shared 3 extra desserts with my cooliozx cousin.

i like flash forward!!
watching the first epi online now.
while waiting for it to load. i surfed like everything.
& watched chick vs dick.
i died. laughing. i seldom laugh to myself in the middle of the night. but this episode? shittttass funny.
so to those who want a break. go catch it!
if you dont laugh... well. then just treat it as i'm going cuckoo!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uOP45Ni6dfo

i shall not embed it cause. well.
i've beeen embedding too many.
lol lol lol.

i hereby solomnly swear to start mugging full steam from today onwards.

time spend with you never ever feels mediocre.

it just either leaves an amazingly warm feeling in the pit of my heart,
or a gaping suffocating emptiness inside.


guess you just ain't any average person to me =).



so,
here's to me, telling my heart to stop being selfish for a few weeks
& give you up to A's.
mind over heart
logic over emotions


& you.
better give it your all.
because you've got so much inside that the world has yet to see.
& you will show them. just like how you've shown me.
i genuinely believe in you.
so please stop doubting yourself & watching all the useless tv shows in the world.



chocs left in my house,
5% of what was originally there just 4 days ago.
which was like 2 packs of cadbury dark chocolate, 10 mini ritter sport & some ireland choc wafer thingy.
ok that's good. that's good. when the supply ends. i shall start grocery shopping for FRUITS.
grapes grapes. blueberries. strawberries. MELON! honeydew!
fruits are good.
they're yummy sweet and juicy.
best of all, they don't make you thirsty!
yay to propaganda.


aw. & guess i'm too late to say happy halloween =).
love the weather.


tomorrow i can't study...
grandma's 80th birthday
& i decided to join my parents for squash.
actually, my tummy catalyzed that decision.
[just like an enzyme, yknow? induced fit? hell yeah]




i started missing you the min you entered the taxi =/
<3.

talked with dilys & clara today for HOURS.
literally. from like. 5pm till 9pm?
3-5 was shopping around for things with dilys to bring over to clara's house

so much for studying.
finally saw clara after like, a million years.
i hope you feel happier =)))






i'm feeeeeeling.
very...
screwed.


the mocks today were funny.
i was once upon a time just this little bit smarter.
i feel no sense of urgency about the impending disaster.
none at all. i mean, i voice it out and stuff. but my heart does not beat any faster anymore.


its either make or break.
i think my persistent headache would break me first though -.-
i'm consuming chocolates like there's no tomorrow. damn the abundant supply available at home =(

Just reached home !
I had so much fun today.
Caught up with Des.
Laughed like hell with Olivia & Cynthia & you. Like seriously. They amuse me to no end.

=).
Hah such a rare feeling.

Oh but there was a downside.
My SAT exactly the same score.
V annoying =(.
Reading & Writing improved.
Math. Died. -.- irony of life.

Oh well.
I think I can safely conclude,
SC >>> HC
SAPS >>> HC.
It's sad how my jc life is, really.
I know it's PROB cause I've never tried at the whole making friends thingy though. Since I'm such an inherently unsociable person. Ok prob not.
ZzzZZzZ
2 years of coming to sch just for academics.
Squash wasn't that enjoyable either in hc. Nothing like sc. Nothing at all.

But still. At least I have friends in class that make me laugh and hear my endless whining. And of course. Sandra. Who is amazing for standing my bullshit.

I've not bathed hahah. Goodness I stink. Tmr got bio plus math mock. -.- I didn't even know both were paper 2 till like 11pm. Ahwell. I'll still go. =).

I'm on this quest.
TO BE LESS VULGAR.

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yknow

there's puke on my vectors notes
gp notes
chem & math practices

how about.
i'm never going to touch them again?
oh, the stench.


why does my headache persists?
stress? weird. i'm not keeping track of time
once in a while, when someone reminds me [usually tiff & dilys],
i actually get a little flutter in my heart.


my gosh i'm such a loner.

ok so i'm mega backdated.
youtube is so addictive.
now i understand... hahaha i only used to use youtube to watch music videos.

omgggg.


seriously. SO GOOD. so fucking good.
ok excuse me while i indulge in more.
omg i bet sandra/zx watched this like a million years ago alr x)

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ok i just went to search "Diversity"
caught 3 more dance vids.
they're so good. i mean. good doesn't even describe it.
awww the lil fluffy hair kid doing all the back flips is the shit.